What a puppy can tell you about your life

I am back after a week long hiatus due to some nasty sinus issues that resulted in me loosing my voice for a few days. There is much to speak about and yet at the same time, not much to speak about. Let me start with the risks that I have taken this week,
Last Sunday I saw that one of my pilot friends who always comes to the Gathering was sitting alone, so I walked up to him and said hello and asked him if he wanted to sit with us. Instead he asked me to sit with him and then gave me a big hug. After church was done I even invited him to come for our Oscar party, which he said he might but then called later to say he couldn't because he had to study for his flight the next day. I must say that was very brave of me, even if I AM more interested in his roommate!! I still haven't heard back from my hockey player friend, who seems to be really shy or really scared of me! Oh well, the ball is in his court, I even gave him my phone number.

On a different note, I have developed an interesting new passion in the last couple of weeks, researching my family history. I watched this show called "Who do you think you are." Where they take stars on a journey through their family history and they find out all of these interesting things about where they came from. This is really exciting for me (although I am sure that Ron is chuckling at the thought of me researching my mennonite roots) it is quite thrilling. I even discovered that my great great great grandparents LOVED music and that many times during the evenings they would sing and play with the whole family for fun. They even encouraged their children to learn instruments. It's like a connection to this gifting and passion I have for singing! My mom and I are earnestly looking for secrets in my family history, there are rumours that my great great grandfather married a native lady but off course there is not proof, and there are also rumours that there is some black ancestory on my dads side. What a fascinating journey this all is!

Lastly, my puppy has been teaching me a lot about life. This last weekend I had the opportunity to observe my sister with her son and it struck me as to some of the similiarities between raising a child and having a puppy. (no disrespect meant) But I tend to notice that my puppy brings out the worst and the best in me sometimes (more often the worst) and it started me on a journey of wondering if I would actually be ready at this moment to have children. Then I started thinking about the freedom that I have to travel and pick up and go wherever I want and hold on to the lofty dreams that I have for my life (like singing at the Met, and living in Europe) and I started to wonder if my life is suited for marriage and children. I am not saying that I don't want it, don't get me wrong, but I feel as though God just reminded me that it is not his time yet because his timing is perfect. I am not sure that any of this makes sense but basically what I am trying to say is that I am content where God has me, I have some incredible friendships, I am an aunt to two (soon three) kids and I love my best friends little daughter. I am truely blessed through the gifts that God has given to others!!