The inner dialogue of a Friday afternoon freak out!!

Today is Friday and the weekend has come. You see when you are a teacher, and a musician the only time to meet new people (guys especially) comes on the weekend. So every Friday my roommate and I doll ourselves up and make the treacherous trip into Moose Jaw in order to meet new people. Sarah is always so pumped up for the weekend and excited to meet new people but. . . I have a confession to make, every weekend at about 4:00 I think to myself, "oh how nice it would be to just stay home and spend the evening with a movie." Not that I don't like hanging out with Sarah (because I do, she is amazing!!) but because it is around this time that I get slightly terrified that when we go out and meet new guys I won't know what to say or that I will make an absolute fool of myself. The crazy thing is that this happens every single weekend!! Afterward I feel so fired up and I love it, but that is always after the fact. And then there is the pressure of knowing that this weekend I have to take a risk of some sort and since tonight is the only night that I am going out, it is going to have to be today. Then I wonder what this risk is going to look like and in the back of my head I hear
dun. . .
dun. . .
dun. . .

Oh Mel what have you done!!

Truth is, I don't know!!! But I am going to do it anyway! I've learned that you have to do the things that scare you, no matter how terrifying they are. There is no other way to learn, to change or to grow. You just wait. . .

tomorrow I will have one exciting blog!!